Cute baby and Chubby Mom

Ok, I'm baaaack! I don't understand where my time goes, i really don't. I'm still rolling along here on my journey...

Weighed in today and lost an additional 2.4 pounds, brining my total weight loss to -13.8. Yay me! I feel like I am really in my zone and this is making me happy. The bad news is, this weekend we're going to Las Vegas, Sin City. For me the sins are food. God how i love food! I need to stay focused and in my zone while I'm there, and so I have scouted out a WW meeting and am planning to WI while I am there, hopefully that will keep me real.

My husband has been trying to be as supportive as possible, but sometimes, i just really want to strangle him. He gets very weird about me immersing myself into this. I have been posting with a local WW group and reading up on big losers, and he gets very negative about it. I have tried to explain to him that it's just me keeping myself inspired and he doesn't understand. I think sometimes he has a hard time believing that i have "different" ways of doing things than him. I think part of the problem is he doesn't care how heavy I am and doesn't really understand why i want to lose weight. Uh, hello, I'm obese! Take a look at my BMI, it's not just kinda sort of, it's way in the obese section. I just want to get healthy and happy with my body image, i don't want to be limited to the things I can or can't do because of my size. I don't want my son growing up with a mom who can't do things with him. I need to do something about this, so i am.

Wish me luck on my trip and good vibes and OP wishes to everyone.

D'Oh! Two weeks and i've disappeared already! But never fear, i have done great! I lost 2.5 pounds this week, bringing my total to -9, yay me!

I had company at the house two weeks ago, and then i took a week to recover. I find it very strange how the days are passing and it doesn't really seem like i'm doing things, yet i'm busy every day. I think this motherhood thing is much more difficult then anyone let on. do you remember the old Army ads, "this is the toughest job you'll ever love?" Well so far that's motherhood to me. I am also officially unemployed, which is completely bizzaro. I have worked sine i was 15, so this should take some getting used to!

The Boss slept for 5 1/2 hours last night, mommy of course woke up 4 1/2 hours in and sat up waiting to be woken up. What the heck is going to happen to me once he actually sleeps through the night!?!

Back to the weight loss. I have been working out M-Sat so that is helping, i really need to drink my water, i think that will help. Everyone wish me an on point week!

Well the boss calls!

Out of town family is gone and now the cleaning begins!

I was terrified of going to weigh in yesterday knowing with the out of towners i wasn't good at all on Friday and Saturday. The rest of the week i ate under my points and walked but on Friday and Saturday I went overboard. I did a family dinner on Saturday with a nice fattening lasagna and a birthday cake and on Saturday we did a buffet. Yes, a buffet, i think i ate 5 deserts! Oy vey! So yesterday I went and weighed in and I lost 4.6 lbs. yay me! So my goal for this week is to stay OP and loss more this week. I need to start walking or something, but i haven't quite decided on what yet. I do the walk with the baby, but there is only so fast i can do that, especially with the current weather. So until then i need to really watch my points and not over eat.

The Boss (that's what my FIL calls Matthew) is doing great and the extended feedings,i am trying to push him to eat every 4-5 hours instead of the 3 hours he was doing. It's going pretty well except at night, when he stills wants to eat every third hour or so. the doctor said he should only be waking up once a night ad should be sleeping through by 4 months. this mothering thing is hard! I want to "establish" good sleeping habits that all the books talk about but at thhe same time, i don't want to leave the Boss to cry at night when he's hungry. Especially since he's still in the Bassinet beside the bed. That's the other thing the doctor said... That he could be in the crib. The crib is in the other room! It's too soon for that, he's way to little (9 weeks) besides, i'm a Jewish mother in training.

OK,i need to vacuum the house while the Boss is asleep, or find another way to procrastinate!

So this is what I accomplished today...

I put away all of the laundry (did the laundry and folded yesterday)
I vacuumed and dusted the floors (tumble weeds abound from the below accomplishment)
I brushed my very hairy dog (you could make another dog with all her fur)
I bathed my son (he's so sweet and loves his bath!)
I took a shower (long over due!)
I stuck to my diet (life style change!!)

This staying at home thing is hard because there is no bravos, i don't want to say accomplishments without sounding like i'm discounting staying at home. I worked for so long, that i'm used to someone saying, "wow, great job," a bravo. With my son being so young and my husband being oblivious no one notices these things. I feel like i'm a 5 year old looking for acceptance when my hubby gets home. "Look, i vacuumed, look our clothes are put away, don't the hardwood floors look great!" I really need to find a better way to feel accomplished!!

I did stick to the diet and burned some awesome calories vacuuming with my son strapped to me in the worlds greatest invention, the Baby Bjorn. I need to get in the diet zone, i've been there before, it's just reminding yourself that eating healthy isn't harder than eating unhealthy. I talked to my best friend today and she (a skinny minnie if you ever met one) reminded me that she thinks about what she eats all the time, nothing comes easy. I guess that's what i need to remember... this won't come easy and it's something i will always have to work at. But if i could have a super power it would be a high metabolism!

Off to bed!

Hi there and thanks for visiting my little corner of the web. I'm going to launch right into this like you already know me, so here goes.

My son is 2 months 2 days old today and i can't believe that much time has passed since he was born. I just got done feeding him and he fell asleep on my chest, how is it possible to love someone so much after such a short period of time? My whole life has changed and the funny thing is I don't even care. I spend my days changing diapers and making up silly songs all in the attempt to coax a smile out of Matthew. Today i was singing a song about pooping to him while he stared up at me like i had lost my mind, and at the very end, there it is a loop sided toothless grin to melt my heart...

Speaking of melting, what is it about having a baby and emotions. I'm watching American Idol (i love, love, love Reality TV) and these stupid sappy stories are making me well up. What is with that? It really crazy. And why is my patience with my baby immeasurable, but when it comes to my husband and dog I have none? My poor husband has not gotten the best side of me lately, very moody with him.

I rejoined Weight Watchers this morning. I have steadily gained weight since meeting my husband 3 years ago and now i weighed in at 249.6 (oh for hell's sake just say 250!!) and for being 5'6" that is way too much. This is the same i weighed the last time i joined WW and lost about 80 lbs. I was happy, happy, happy at 170 - 175 so that is my goal. I have no intention of being skinny skinny I just want to be back in shape. So i got home and did a crazy amount of chores, which i'm hoping counts as some form of exercise. I have let the hubby know he can't be his standard food pusher, like he normally is. Losing weight with him in my life will be a challenge. But hey, i'm up for it!